bits and pieces of life

I have not written in my blog for quite some time. I wish I could make time for it more during the school session but it is virtually impossible. Last semester, I had good intentions and worked very hard but not all my dreams became a reality. Some due to my decisions and much due to outside forces closing in on me. Bottom line is that I dropped the Modern Middle East, got a disappointing B- in Islam and its Empires and two A’s in anthropology courses. All in all, I hope I still earned a scholarship or two. I am disappointed in myself but I suspect I can recover from a B-. Problem lies in the fact that I will have to earn A’s in everything from now on. I am thinking positive here. 
Lately, I have been doing some thinking about future career choices so I can carefully map out my future education regarding grad school. I have been thinking of being a professor of anthropology but that would basically require me to “go all the way” regarding my schooling (PhD). I am not sure if that is what I want yet. I have also been pondering looking into being a US diplomat to a Muslim country. Maybe that would be a life that should be played out in the comic books instead of in reality! LOL I need career guidance. I avoided seeing my advisor and just chose classes for next year. I have the idea that I know best. Maybe not.
I subbed today at a “high needs” school. The kids are generally good but are kids who are disadvantaged from an economic and familial standpoint. It went ok. Today was interesting. As the day progressed the attendance dropped significantly in each class. I guess the word was spread that a sub was in biology class! You may also find it interesting to note that those who showed up did the work. I am still getting paid the same for subbing as I did 3 years ago. I am frustrated by that for obvious reasons. After school (yes, I am still here writing this on paper because I need to clear my thoughts) I will grocery shop with my phantom money. I am tired of having no money. My credit cards are virtually maxed (I have two with relatively small limits). I will pay them off in the fall with my financial aid. I just feel guilty about using them in this economy.
On the home front, hubby and I have been spending lots of time together after work. It helps our marriage tremendously. Tonight, I will get ready and bake a pizza for dinner. We are going to Jacksonville for mother’s day. I am cooking for my MIL! I hope the car makes it. Insh’Allah it will.